What happened to my great plan to lose weight and get healthy? Now I see why there are so many Day Ones! If I look at the negatives, I can say that I haven’t lost a single pound of weight since my last post. I’m not sure I’ve gained any energy either. Looking at the positives, I have aquired an elliptical machine. I have continued to try to eat healthy. I continue to try to exercise. (“try”?)

But reality hit last night while watching TV. I finally got around to watching my recording of the first episode of Tony Robbins’ Breakthrough. The lightbulbs started going off in my head. My attitude has really gotten in the way the last few weeks. There I go kidding myself again… my attitude has really gotten in the way the last year! Tony Robbins’ whole show revolved around changing a couple’s thinking, changing their attitude. They were doing things they had been thinking they could not do. By forcing them to do things they thought were impossible, they learned some lessons.

  1. The impossible is often possible.
  2. Being unhappy is a result of being stuck in your thinking.
  3. Changing your thinking will change how you live your life.
  4. Changing how you live your life will bring happiness.

The bottom line is – if things are not the way you want them, stop being stuck in how you think about things. I have been thinking, “I can’t lose weight now that I’m ‘older’. I can’t sleep. I can’t stop eating because I’m so hungry. I can’t run. I can’t exercise because I’m so tired and I don’t have time.” Do you see that word “can’t”? That word means “impossible”. I have really been believing I can’t. I look at healthy women and think, “I want to be that way, but I can’t be that way.” I’ve watched enough Biggest Loser, that I should know better. I should have recognized the negative attitude. But somewhere in there I gave up because it was too hard. “Too hard” translates to “impossible” also.

How ridiculous is that way of thinking? I think I am so special, so different, that other women can be healthy and fit, but I can’t? Sounds like just an excuse to remain stuck. And that’s just what it is.

Enough with being stuck. Time keeps ticking while I keep stuck. Again, how ridiculous is that? I have dreams. I have visions of what I want my life to be like. Now it is time to pursue those dreams and live the life I want. Thanks, Tony!

Day One

Here I am again. Day One again. I must have seen a thousand Day Ones. I keep thinking that by my age, I should have figured this out by now. The problem is that life post-menopause brings a whole new set of rules. Rule number one is: excess weight is next to impossible to lose. The past couple years for me have been filled with a never-ending search to find the magic combination of diet, exercise, and cognitive examination.

One so-called expert will tell me to just eat the right foods. That will remove hunger pains by readjusting my hormones and the pounds will slip away. (I just need to hire a full-time cook to take care of that for me.) Another expert will drill into me that I just need to exercise, although the type or quantity of exercise is up for debate. Unfortunately, I can no longer keep up with the thirtysomething trainer on the DVD who’s knees and hips don’t crack and ache. And then, there are the experts who claim that if I just get rid of my emotional garbage and stop eating to fill emptiness (of some sort), I will eat only (only) when my body needs food to sustain itself and before long I will find myself at my “natural” weight.

I agree that at 5′ 4″ and 175 pounds, I need to lose weight. At this weight, I am just under the “obese” category. I have at times drifted into the “obese” category. Which is when I have a mental heart attack and get serious (serious) about losing weight. I am statistically at high risk for ill health. I’m real about that. But what really tells me I need to lose weight is not the statistics, but how I feel. I feel miserable in all areas weight related.

Even though I haven’t found that magic combination yet, I do have faith it’s out there and will keep searching for it. So here I am starting fresh. With a new attitude, a new determination and possibly a new magic combination.