I haven’t been posting lately because the last few weeks have been a disaster for me in the weight and fitness areas. This bad spell culminated in a realization that I had reverted into the old me. The one-who-was, last July. This is a slap in the face! This realization resulted in waking up in the middle of the night last night and tossing and turning. When I woke up, I listened to myself and I realized I was telling myself what a loser I am. No wonder I am not doing well.
Things first started falling apart after vacation a couple months ago. When I got home, I didn’t pick up my c25k program like I had been doing it. After that it was alternating good and bad days or stretches of days. Then I was sick. Then I hurt my hip (which is pretty much healed now). I have this looming Color Run which I signed up for at the end of December expecting to be able to run the whole 5k. Well, I won’t be able to. I’m allowing the frustration of how difficult this is for me to discourage me. (And I’m well aware that it’s not just difficult for me physically, but mentally too of course).
And these past two weeks I have been dealing with lots of hunger because I’m not always eating healthy foods. I am having cravings, which normally I don’t. I’m feeling deprived. I’ve gained back a couple pounds. I was expecting to be ten pounds lighter than I am at this point. Too much social eating and temptations lately!
I don’t stop to recognize what I have accomplished. I just get upset at what I can’t YET do.
And all this is exactly why I am overweight. It is my battle.
I really want to keep my blog positive, but the truth is the truth and I have to fight this battle with everything I can muster up. Do I sound mad? Good!
Today, I’m tracking my food and drinking lots of water. I’m working on getting the new me back (mentally). I’m going to post this and get out for a walk. It’s hot out, but the sun is shining!