Day 2

Yesterday went much better than the last two weeks. I really focused on who the “new me” was and reached out to recover her. I can’t thank you readers enough for all the encouragement and sound advice you gave me regarding my last post. It was quite a reality check too. I get thinking negative things and over time they just snowball to where I can’t see reality beyond the lies my mind is telling me. Thank you!


I took my walk in the hot sunshine. It was a very slow walk. Most of that was not due to my lack of energy though. Mid afternoon is busy in my neighborhood. We have narrow streets, no sidewalks. When cars go by, I have to pull the dog in close and either hug the very edge of the road or go into the brush on the side of the road. Yesterday I had lots of cars, a school bus and a home improvement truck that drove past me four times. On the fourth time I was going to snap a pic of his license plate, but I didn’t get my camera out soon enough. I thought it was unlikely he was up to no good since he was advertising his business on the side of the truck, but you never know.

But the real slowness, I think, was the horrible shoes I choose to wear. They were so hard to walk in! (I’ll put up a separate post about the shoes.)

My dog was not too happy about the heat. He really is showing his age (almost 11). We went two miles and in spite of walking so slow, I did ask him to run up a couple of the hills (just inclines, not big hills or anything) at fast speed. He loves to run and is very fast. It’s more that his endurance has gone way down. He hasn’t started having old-age problems yet. We went through a couple years with our other golden retriever suffering from arthritis, seizures and messing in the house. I’m not looking forward to those times again.

I went past some lilacs in bloom that smelled so nice. I was thinking it was so nice to have some signs of the end to our cold weather.


I ate well yesterday. Here’s my daily intake captured in pictures. It was about 1300 calories. That’s much better than it has been lately. I went to bed hungry too, but that’s ok. It won’t last. If I eat the right things, the hunger pains and cravings will lessen.


In putting these pictures together I noticed how much of my pantry has become filled with organic foods. The only things I ate yesterday that were not organic were for lunch: the corn tortillas, salsa and cheese. I live in a small town and finding organic foods is a challenge. I try to shop if I’m in the city.

Yesterday was my volunteer morning, so I just grabbed the nut and fruit bar to take along. The hardest part of eating yesterday was the afternoon snack. I wanted an ice cream pop. They’re so yummy and only 200 calories. So easy too, just unwrap and eat. No washing, cutting, cooking, etc. But there’s also nothing healthy in the ice cream pop and plenty of not so healthy things. So I had an apple and drank lots of coconut flavored carbonated water (no calories, no artificial sweetener) to get through till dinner.

The whole day of eating could have been improved with more vegetables and less grains that is more typical of how I eat. For one thing, I usually don’t eat grains at dinner and often prepare two vegetables instead. I really do love vegetables and it feels like a complete meal if there’s three items on the plate.

Now to regain the exercise side of “new me”.

Getting Back on Track


I haven’t been posting lately because the last few weeks have been a disaster for me in the weight and fitness areas. This bad spell culminated in a realization that I had reverted into the old me. The one-who-was, last July. This is a slap in the face! This realization resulted in waking up in the middle of the night last night and tossing and turning. When I woke up, I listened to myself and I realized I was telling myself what a loser I am. No wonder I am not doing well.

Things first started falling apart after vacation a couple months ago. When I got home, I didn’t pick up my c25k program like I had been doing it. After that it was alternating good and bad days or stretches of days. Then I was sick. Then I hurt my hip (which is pretty much healed now).  I have this looming Color Run which I signed up for at the end of December expecting to be able to run the whole 5k. Well, I won’t be able to. I’m allowing the frustration of how difficult this is for me to discourage me. (And I’m well aware that it’s not just difficult for me physically, but mentally too of course).

And these past two weeks I have been dealing with lots of hunger because I’m not always eating healthy foods. I am having cravings, which normally I don’t. I’m feeling deprived. I’ve gained back a couple pounds. I was expecting to be ten pounds lighter than I am at this point. Too much social eating and temptations lately!

I don’t stop to recognize what I have accomplished. I just get upset at what I can’t YET do.

And all this is exactly why I am overweight. It is my battle.

I really want to keep my blog positive, but the truth is the truth and I have to fight this battle with everything I can muster up. Do I sound mad? Good!

Today, I’m tracking my food and drinking lots of water. I’m working on getting the new me back (mentally). I’m going to post this and get out for a walk. It’s hot out, but the sun is shining!


New Recipe #7 – Turkey and Sweet Potato Chili

Here’s a recipe that I followed almost to a T, which is quite unusual for me. The only change I made was to use leftover rotisserie chicken in place of the ground turkey, but that’s just because I needed to use it up. This chili was delicious. I was worried the sweet potatoes might be odd (too sweet) but they were very good. The adobo has a great flavor. It is very spicy, so use it to your taste. I made this on the stove top because I didn’t have a whole 7 hours for it to cook in a crock pot.

Turkey and Sweet Potato Chili


2 lbs ground turkey meat
2 large sweet potatoes, peeled and chopped into squares
2 red onion
1 (15oz) can kidney beans
1 (15oz) can black beans
3 peppers (red, yellow, orange) cored, seeded and chopped
2 (28oz) cans of diced tomatoes, drained
1/4-1/2 cup of beef stock
2 tbsp tomato paste
3-4 garlic cloves, crushed
2-3 chilis in adobo, chopped with some extra sauce added
1-2 tsp chili powder
1/2 tsp paprika
1 1/2 tsp cumin
2 tsp dry oregano
salt and pepper

Toppings suggestions: cilantro, green onions, jalapeno, cheddar, sour cream or greek yogurt, shredded red cabbage (for some crunch)


  1. Dice peppers and red onion and place aside.
  2. Peel and chop sweet potatoes into medium squares. Place aside.
  3. Drain beans and tomatoes of juices.
  4. Press 3-4 cloves of garlic through the garlic press and place aside.
  5. Dice chili in adobo and place aside.
  6. Measure out approx 1/4 cup of beef stock. Place aside.
  7. Brown turkey meat in medium to large skillet. Drain fat and place aside.
  8. Place all ingredients into crockpot. Cook in crock pot on low for 7-8 hours.
  9. Place in bowls and top with your favorite chili toppings. Toppings that add very little calories would include: red cabbage, cilantro, green onions and jalapenos.

Serves 8